First poem!

ADDICTION
I’m angry at him
Shouting at the top of my voice
He’s trying to calm me down with words
It’s not working
I want to hit him
I want him to feel how I feel
So I do he says nothing
He just lets out a grin.... almost a smile
Damn! How does he do that to me
I almost want to give in but no!
He’s not going to win
Not this time not again
I say I’m leaving and I’m never coming back
I m tired of my life being off track
But then just as I being to work out the door
He grabs hand and pulls me close
I’m fighting him and pulling away
But he’s holding me too tight
I want to break free.....or do I?
I feel my body letting go....shit!
It’s happening again....
Fight it ...my brain tells me
I say I’m trying but it’s not working
His grip of my heart is too tight
I cannot break free and leave my heart behind
I don’t want to leave without it
So I finally let go and sink into his arms
My brain is telling me this is stupid
I say I know
But I can’t let go of him
He my drug
And I can live without him
Guess I’m just.....
Addicted